Experienced emo night.. Doesn't feel like blogging anymore. Or perhaps I should private it so as not to divulge too much of my life. Year 2010 had been a disastrous year for me, full of unpleasant memories. Well, life still goes on, I shouldn't dwell on it any further. On a side note, I have been offered a position in RWS. Seriously I have no idea how to survive my very first shift job..

I know this is random. but..

My dearest hubby~ I love you! Much much more than I love myself, I swear. I'm simply too blessed to have found you in my life. And for that, I shall change for the better this time round and not to repeat the same mistakes! I've been such a detestable person for the past years to the extent that I dislike myself intensely. I find that really horrible! I'm such an awful person. I've done so many things to antagonize and piss you off but yet I'm always forgiven. This is the last final chance to prove myself and there will be no excuses.

Saw this article elsewhere and I find it really meaningful.

Here it goes:

Remember no matter how troublesome you will have to face be it now or future,

Never ever forget your parents, continue reading and you understand why..

.. When I’m old.

• When I’m old, and not myself anymore.
  • Please understand me, give me a little more patience.

• When I spill my soup on my shirt, and I forgotten how to tie my shoelaces,
  • Please remember how I first taught you to do everything with my hands.

• When I keep repeating and nagging you over and over again,
  • Please be patient and listen to me, don’t interrupt me.
  • When you’re young, I had to keep repeating thousands hundreds of time to mould you to who you are.

• When I require you to bath me,
  • Please don’t find me irritating.
  • Do remember how I find all means and methods just to bath you.

• When new technologies and stuff I don’t understand,
  • Please don’t laugh at me.
  • Think of how I replied to so many of your (Why..)s when you’re young.

• When my legs are tired and unable to walk,
  • Please lend me your young strength to hold me.
  • Just like how I hold you when you started your first step in life.

• When I suddenly forgot our conversation topic,
  • Please give me some time to think.
  • Actually to me, the topic is not important, all I want is to have you by my side to listen and I’ll be satisfied.

• When you see me getting older, please don’t be sad.
  • Understand me, encourage me, just like how I treated you when you started to learn everything in life.

When I guide you through your road of life, please be by side always to accompany me walk through my remaining road of life.
Give me your love and patience and I’ll give you my greatest smile,
the smile of my endless love for you.

I would like to express my gratitude to Daddy & Mummy, for their upbringing all these years. It isn't easy and without them, I wouldn't be here. Thank you Daddy & Mummy, ILOVEYOU!

4 Sept 2010 Sat